I spent several years experimenting with drugs, the occult, the paranormal, and just about anything I could find looking for answers to the pain inside. Sometime along this journey, I did something very bad, something the Bible says very clearly not to do. As I began to come out of this ‘dark place in my brain’, that’s what a friend called it; I accepted the fact that I was forever damned.

One night I was taking a bath and thinking about how I could never go to heaven because of what I’d done. No matter how hard I scrubbed, I could not wash away what had happened. I put my head in my hands and cried. The bathroom was very small, and all of a sudden, the light dimmed. I looked up, and the light brightened. I put my head back in my hands and continued crying. It happened again and again. It really grabbed my attention and I wondered why it happened only when I was mourning over my past sin. I sensed a very tall being blocking out the light, an angel that wanted to comfort me.

I don’t know what happened or what it was all about. But I do know that after that, I came to peace with my past and with God. I realized God loved me and forgave me, and it changed the direction of my life.